In my Bible study I was posed the question “What promise has
God made that you feel you deserve, but have not yet received?” I admit with humility that as I read the
story of Sarah and Abraham I felt frustrated that God has not made me a more
specific promise. I know the promises in
the Bible, but sometimes they feel so vague.
Why can’t I be like Sarah? Why
can’t God hear my thoughts and address me with a specific promise about my
future? Maybe just a promise that there
is a future to hold onto?
I feel like I’m levitating above a deep canyon. All my life I have felt such discernment,
holding onto certainty regarding big decisions in my life. I am only 23, so I realize there haven’t been
too many of those decisions yet, but still there have been things that felt big
to me. Life altering decisions like
where to go to school, where to live, what to major in. Being told that my life
was ending, but knowing that couldn’t be true because God wasn’t done with me
yet. But right now I feel I am supposed
to be reaching out, holding onto a promise I’m not even sure of what it
actually means. I’m not falling, I’m not
flying, I’m floating in an abyss and I’m not sure where I am supposed to
go. Reaching out grasping onto an
invisible hope of an unforeseen future.
How can I do something that seems so confusing? I know that is the definition of faith,
believing in what you can’t see, but I’d rather believe directly in an
improbable promise than hope in an undefined one.
In my devotions I was reminded that all business is God’s,
but not all of it is mine. The future is
not my secret to be let in on. Knowing my future takes God out of my
present. I am not promised a future, but
an eternity and isn't that what truly matters? God promises to heal the
sick and I am commanded to trust in that promise no matter how that promise might be displayed.
Sarah and Abraham had to wait. Isaac and Rebekah had to wait. I have to wait. So, as I am digging wells and waiting, I will actively wait
for God to fulfill His promise to me. Persevering
despite any devastation, pain, or hardship.
Knowing that in the end victory awaits me.
This is something I have been implementing in my life over
the past couple weeks and can I just tell you that when you choose patience,
God will honor that choice! I have found
myself at peace and experiencing true joy in where my life is at this very
moment! I know that whatever road lies
ahead of me is not easy and I have chosen to believe that I don’t know the
future because God is not only protecting me, but He is providing for me. I am
not worrying about future pain, but rejoicing in where life takes me at this
moment. I GET to rely fully on God and
be alive in today.
What promise has God made to you that you are waiting
for? How long are you willing to
wait? What are you going to do while you
wait?
KarI, God promised me something that was huge. I would rather not say what it is. The important thing was I believed in the promise. It took six years. Others around me told me I had to accept things as they were and to stop wishing for something that was beyond my control. But I wasn't wishing! I was holding on to God's promise. Oh trust me there were several times over those six years that I wondered if I had gotten it wrong....Was it me or was it really his promise to me. I don't believe at this time in my life my faith was as strong as yours is today, but still I believed God could overpower and use a miracle to change the hearts and minds and situation.
ReplyDeleteAs I type this on my phone with tears flowing down my face, I am reminded how great our God is.